hey..just came back from walking with gail to the metro station..i didn't really think i would, but i think i actually felt sad...i mean, we don't really hang out that much, but i guess being apartment mates for 8 mths does mean something. she's going to europe for awhile before going home..well, i told her to call if she felt lonely.
anyways..today didn't really go too well...feel slightly crappy..woke up today to call my sis...was kinda looking forward to talking to her, and telling her bout stuff. but the conversation didn't go too well. i guess it was because i wasn't in that great a mood after she too said that maybe i should just stay in canada and not go back. i have actually thought about it, but i just want to meet up with everybody..that's all..actually part of me is a lil afraid that, after hoping so much, i'll get disappointed since everybody would probably be busy with their own stuff anyway..and spore would prob not be as great as it looks now through my rose-tinted view, with all the bad stuff filtered out and temporarily forgotten. i don't know. well, just now while i was sitting in subway eating my lil grilled chicken sub, my mind just drifted, and i thought about things. maybe it wouldn't be so bad staying in vancouver. like if i can't help the situation i'm in, i should just make the best of things.tt used to be one of my mottos, but i guess sometimes you just forget.
anyway, yah..after that my sis just told me bout some things which i guess meant well, and probably agree with, but i just wasn't in the mood to listen when she sounded so preachy. you know how stubborn i can get. i guess that was why...well, i feel a lil bad now, and i knew i was being childish..oh well, shall apologize to her later. i guess it was also cos i felt that she was more interested in telling me stuff rather than listen to all the things i had been waiting to tell her. didn't really get to tell her much in the end.
haaaiz...what else...
not going to chicago anymore this thursday..decided that maybe it would be better to just stay, and explore montreal. might go biking this weekend instead!! hope that works out..would be fun i'm sure..
anyway, i think my blog looks really nice now after its major facelift. ehehe...thankew bryan and bettina!! owe you guys a treat IF i do go back. maybe i should just extinguish that small lil hope now..that lil part of me still clinging on to and wishing the impossible...aaaiiyah.
ok...maybe i'll continue later...man...i write so much..didn't think i would. guess it's kinda therapeutic cos you get to reflect about stuff while you write. hmm...ok...
oh yesh!! it's jeannice's b'day today! happy burfday gurlie!! hope you see this...you have to come to my site! anyway..called her just now already. the poor girl still has exams. heheheh... i am evil. =D
okok...think i'm going out soon..shall write again soon!
lata!
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