Sher.

i suddenly miss my old house so much.the one i spent 10 years of my life growing up in...i miss my room, my sister's room, the attic, the garden, the whole neighbourhood we used to take walks in, the winding road we used to run on, the supermarket..... listening to some music now -- ginny owens. and it just brought back images of me and my sis listening to these songs in her room singing, dancing, goofing around. 17 years of my life back then feels so far away. seems like another life - someone else's life sometimes. wonder if it's the whole emigrating thing or if it's just me. maybe it's just cos the house i called home for such a long time is no more. when you don't have a home in a place anymore, it's just so unstabling. i miss home. =( it's not even something i can go back to anymore.
oh well, some things you just have to let go..
and i think, if i just close my eyes and try hard enough, i'm almost there....=) i guess that's the closest i can get.
i miss my sister too. the big one more cos i haven't seen her in 9 months. =( i miss you so much, che. sorry for being stubborn the other time, or for even thinking that i don't feel that close to you anymore. i miss our late-night talks in our old home, jogging together...i just can't help crying now..i don't know why. we just go way back. how we grew up together, and how you used to hate it when mummy made me tag along wherever you went. but we just grew so close in the end, although we are so different. thanks for being my big sister, che, for loving me, and watching out for me. i remember when i first got here, and was alone in motreal, homesick for spore, you, shermie and my friends, how what you wrote in my birthday card made me feel strong, or want to be strong for myself. i miss you, che, i miss you so much. and the shermie too. i can't wait to see you again. i want to go home, and sometimes, although things are going pretty great now, i just feel like i want my old life back.
mel,sp, ivy, yt, i miss you guys so much too..8 years is a long time to be friends. i miss dover road, fairfield, the bball courts we used to goof around in, all our childish talk about rankings. =(
mel, i miss being your best friend. =( haven't talked to you in ages. people around you are always blessed. i feel so far away from you now. i miss you mel. =(((
talking about all these just help me remember, and briefly re-live all the good times. my far-away life.
today's entry i guess just morphed into a remembrance...a dedication to the many things so far away from me...i could go on forever, but i guess i don't want to sit here the whole night feeling sad. but it felt good to remember. to 'feel' the old life again...to revisit. maybe that's it..a part of me just feels dead while i'm here. today, i revived it for a while.
i still miss everybody and everything lots.

posted by sheralyn @ 7:38 PM