Sher.

things i learnt today:
1) to be contented with whatever i have been given. anything else is a bonus.
2) to learn how to let go. to stop holding on so tightly, but to open my hands to receive whatever God wants to give me but can't when i don't let Him.
3) that i can CHOOSE to be happy, whatever my circumstances.
4) that all my situations happen for a reason. even though they might not be pleasant.

i think i have to keep reminding myself that i have a choice in everything. God has blessed me so so much, but sometimes i don't see that. always so blinded by what i want. i am truly blessed.

think that this blog has been so me-centred. today has been an eventful day in that i have come to realize a lot of things.




Dear Lord,
i know that i have strayed from you countless of times, i have run away when i heard you calling and i know that i haven't been faithful in spending time with You. i feel so distant from you Lord, and i hate that. but Lord, You have always been faithful.
Lord, without you, my life is in a mess, and there is this emptiness. by myself, i don't have the strength or desire be patient, to truly love those hard to love, to see beyond layers of unreasonableness or meaness under which people who are hurting might hide. everything is about me now. i see my ugliness and my disobedience, and i am ashamed, Lord, and i run even further. i feel so hypocritical when i go to church, and sing Your songs, Lord, but go back to my worldly ways once i step out the door. but You love me so much, and i know that You would never give up on me.
Lord, i just want to thank you also, for the family that you have given me. although things aren't that smooth sailing, but Lord, today you reminded me that i can be thankful for that as well. i know that it is a good training ground to learn how to be patient. help me be a source of support for them and to love them. help me to honour my parents and to obey them.
there are still so many things that i hold on to, Lord. help me to give them up to you slowly and willingly. Lord, i want to be a channel through which your love and blessings flow. i pray that i might keep close to you. thank you for loving me unconditionally, for the people you have provided in my love, who love me so much, and who have shown me what it is like to be true children of God.
i pray that my first instinct would be to come to You before anything else.
thank you for blessing me so richly, Lord, for the ways i can see, and for those i don't.
Amen.

posted by sheralyn @ 3:49 AM