Sher.

don't really know why, but i don't feel myself. feel like crap. maybe it's because i haven't really been able to fall asleep at night, and i wake up early in the morning at the slightest noise. really tired out, but not sleepy. it's torturous. feel really sick of having so much time on my hands, with nobody i really know here to spend it with, and having to look for something to do so that i feel i'm not totally rotting away. feel sicker thinking about how i have another 6 more weeks of this crap. feel so darned bored. and tired. felt happier yesterday when got to do some housework, came up with the idea of planning and managing a garage sale, and tae-boing. feel like such a zombie today though. a state of no emotion and a overwhelming feeling of apathy. feel really bad for vinny cos i keep flooding him with my calls. sorry for complaining so much, or for being so needy. =(((((((( it just sucks to be alone here. the time difference sucks too. uuurgh..just have this feeling of utter restlessness. like i'm wasting my life away. i need somebody here with me now. =( or at least a job, so that i can earn something. maybe it's just a phase or some mood swing.
haaaai....suan le. shall erase all traces of self-pity and helplessness and learn to do something about it.

posted by sheralyn @ 4:16 AM