Sher.

I'M ACTUALLY FINALLY GOING BACK FOR SURE!!!!
after all that hoping and wishing and dreaming!!! =P
soooooo happy!!! =DDDD have to plan out my time properly and make full use of every moment cos it might be a while till i might be able to go back again.
anyway, still in a mild state of disbelief. =)
hmm... just wanted to say that this whole issue has been a real lesson. for the longest time, i had been wanting to go back really badly, and had clung on to the hope that i might be able to go back to see my sis and friends, but it just didn't seem possible at all due to financial constraints and my poor lil sis who wanted me to stay home and accompany her. tried to make it happen by my own means, but it just didn't work out. well, i finally decided to make the best of circumstances i couldn't control and to let go. i totally gave up the thought of going back to spore, and decided to try to be happy in vancouver. then the most remarkable string of events started to occur.
while talking to someone (who happened to be a missionary who came to our house) i found out that you could actually get really cheap air tickets by being an air courier, some as cheap as $100!
i was really happy, and thought that it might be good if i wanted to go back later on.
anyway, that is not the end of it. later on, my sis heard of the SIA deal, and even offered to pay for me to go back (=D thanks che..). but then, i had already checked that out the last time. told her that the deal was actually pretty deceiving, and that i was fine not going back if i couldn't.
finally, my mom found out that we had enough airmiles for me to get a 2-way ticket back!!! and some of the airmiles was expiring this year, so we had to use it up! called the airline like a billion times, and reserved tix for really late in dec. i later on decided that it might be more practical to go back in august instead, and i actually managed to get tickets! so i'm really going back in like 5 days!!! wow. unbelievable. i'm still wondering if i'm prepared for it all...after the hoping so hard and picturing everything in my head. =))))....think the airplane ride will be so fun!!! the anticipation welling up. wanna make a list of things i wanna do and ppl to meet so that i don't regret not making full use of the time. like i wanna be prepared for everything. you know how when you go back to something familiar, you just slip back into normal mode, and forget how much it was beyong your reach before, until after it's gone, and you realize that you didn't fulfil all those things you were wishing for while you were there and it's now too late? was kinda like that for my sis' trip. so shall make sure i plan it all out, and spend proper time with her too. =) have been promised pepper crab by jj, ritz carlton with gail, tanning at sentosa with jeannice and sleepovers by sp!!! =D me so touched...really lucky to have such good friends too...=D
anyways, the main point is that, funny how you can try so hard to make something happen, cling onto wanting it to happen so bad, you just don't realize how selfish you are in your wanting. and then, when you are finally willing to give your want up to God, and say that you want to just leave everything in His hands, he just comes in and gives you so much more than you ever expected or thought possible. i got a FREE ticket!!! how great is that? God is good. =) i think He just wanted me to realize all that. and everything has just fallen into place. on hindsight, if i had gone back, i wouldn't have received my acceptance letter into OT personally(and it would have been really troublesome getting the letter to me so i could reply before the dateline, and getting my immunisations done if i had been away now), vinny wouldn't have come to vancouver, and we all wouldn't have had such a nice time, and i have spent quite an amount of time with shermaine and my parents. everything is just perfect timing. much better than if i had planned it. can actually see God's bigger better plan (that i didn't know of, and couldn't see) working for me. it's just amazing. i started out without a concrete definite plan for the summer, but it has turned out pretty nicely.=)
in a way, i know the trip back would pass really quickly, and really want to make sure i make the best of it, but guess i won't mind going back to montreal too. think it would be a good but hectic term. gonna have my own place!! =D
ok.......really thankful and happy now...=D
meet up with all of you soon! =D

posted by sheralyn @ 3:14 AM